Thursday, September 12, 2002

My Feelings on Rocks

Id like to take a minute to let you know what I think about rocks. I hate rocks. "What", you ask, "have rocks ever done to you?" Its not what rocks have done, but rather what the University has done. I have to take a science class with a lab for my gen ed 7 area, and so I spent two hours yesterday in a lab identifying different kinds of rocks. Just for the record, yes, I am being narrow minded about this. Im like the high school kid who says "why the hell do I need math?" and then goes bankrupt because he cant balance his checkbook. Math I can understand as being necessary. I suck at math, but I took it for my gen ed area without complaining, Id even say I kind of liked it. But rocks. If you can come up with a reason that I, in my anticipated life as a fiction writer and Creative Writing Professor will need to know that Flourite cleaves in four directions at 90 degree angles.. I will shut up. Email me with just one good reason, and I swear I will shut up, but Ive got to tell you , I just dont see one...

Wednesday, September 11, 2002

Rant or WHERE IS YOUR EMPATHY?

What is with all of the anti-September 11th memorial stuff lately?? There have been two articles in the Herald in the past two days about how the memorials are ridiculous and more or less self-indulgent, and how the US has killed as many people as were killed in the WTC, how can we say its so sad
. You know what, I bet that is true. But that isnt the POINT of the memorials. I am going to a memorial tonight, not because I think the government is so great and we've been oh-so-wronged. Im going because there are over 3,000 families in the US who have SUDDENLY and VIOLENTLY lost someone that they loved, and they had to sit there and watch the buildings collapse on TV that they knew their loved ones were trapped in. Now, that should make you stop and think about how unbelievably sad that is and how you should think about your own life.
It's not like youre going to be like "Oh, we killed your people, you killed ours, I guess we're even and we deserved it." Deserve it? Are YOU willing to lose YOUR life for a bad decision that your government made? Do you DESERVE it? Maybe America the government deserved it but the American people in that building did not. No. Matter of fact, if you've got that view, than you're part of the problem that is exacerbating this entire thing. We dont see it the same way as Muslim extremists, they dont see it the same way as us, so we kill each other. Whats the problem, they did it to us they deserve it, right? We did it to them, we deserve it right? Eye for an eye. Except that its REAL PEOPLE that are getting used as bargaining chips, that are paying for what we "deserve". Im pretty sure no one agreed to that. The people that jumped out of that building weren't the ones that said "well gosh, how about we kill poeple in other countries to get good gas prices" No. They went to work every day and did their job, and were thinking about how they had to pick up milk on the way home when a plane crashed into their building and they had to jump from the 110th floor because they had no hope of getting out.
And you know what, its true, we killed people in Afghanistan, and we are wrong, wrong, wrong for it, I totally agree with that. But I tell you what, I bet they are memorializing their people too. I hope they are, because that means that they are understanding the human aspect of the whole thing. Because anyone who is looking at the big picture of "We kill, we get killed back, we deserve it" is missing the same point as the terrorists and the american government are which is, THOSE ARE PEOPLE. There is no
"fairness" or "were even" or "eye for an eye" - its HUMAN LIFE.
Now I know that people are going to say things like Americans are spoiled, we bitch about, for instance low gas prices, and so our government does what it has to get the low gas prices to get re-elected. You know though, do you really think that people are aware of whats going on so that they can have gas 2 cents cheaper? Because I am with Anne Frank, I think that people are basically good at heart, and they dont know whats going on. So yes, as Americans we are rather uninformed. Thats not good. But does it warrant dying in a collapsing building? No. You know who IS responsible for that? The person that MADE the decision to kill people for low gas prices, and the complete lack of morals. I try to stay well informed, i read papers, take classes on current events, try to understand whats going on, but Ive got to tell you, I work 20 hours a week, take 15 credit hours semester, take photography classes, eat, sleep, have meaningful relationships with friends, and I have to do my laundry in there somewhere, and I may have, somewhere along the way, bought a can of tuna that wasnt dolphin-safe, but really, I dont think that I deserve to die for that.
NO ONE can be aware of EVERYTHING thats going on, NO ONE can be 100% sure that every company they buy from is upstanding and moral, that every American policy thats passed isnt harming other people, thats why we elect people to make it their JOB to know.
WHY cant we rely on the people we elect to make the best decisions?? There's the real problem.
What all of this comes down to is that those people were innocent and deserve memorials. In addition to that, dont you think that its good for people to take time out for a reality check and say, 'hey, wow, this kind of thing can happen, and I should think about my own life, and I should kiss my wife when I leave in the morning, cause I might never see her again." Go to a memorial and think about all of the people out there who are exactly like you, who loved things and wanted to go places and had families and think about the unbelievably tragedy that they lost that.
My favorite quote from one of those anti-memorial articles was "am I supposed to cry for these people that I didnt even know?" (sorry, thats not a direct quote, but you get the idea). Yeah. That kind of attitude is the same kind of attitude that the writer said he hated in Americans, the "I dont care as long as it isnt me". Not only that, but its unbelievably sad and inhuman. And thats exactly what terrorists were thinking when they slammed into those buildings, as Americans as a large chunk of people to hate, not as individuals with families and lives like their own
In conclusion, even if you think that the government was wrong and we had it coming, that isnt what the memorials are about, you should be able to empathize as a human with the tremendous loss of life and the unbelievable pain that the families of those people are dealing with. Maybe if everyone can think of each other as humans and give up the hatred and retribution bullshit this wont happen again..

Monday, September 09, 2002

Read this story, worth your time
Flight 93
And for Joe, here's a link you'll like

Friday, September 06, 2002

"So what is love then, is it dictated or chosen?
Does it sing like the hymns of a thousand years,
or is it just pop emotion?
And if it ever was there and it left, does that mean it was never true?
And to exist it must elude,
is that why I think these things of you?"
-Indigo Girls from "Mystery"
Upon Waking
by Denis Johnson

At the far edge of Earth, night
is going away. another
poem begins. slumped over

the typewriter I must get this
exactly, I want to make it
clear this morning that your

face, as it opens
from it's shadow, is more
perfect than yesterday; and

that the light, as it
hesitates over the approach
of your smile, has given this

aching bed more than warmth,
more than poems; someway

a generous rose, or a a very
delicate arrangement of sounds,
has come to peace in this new room

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

Lost Patience
I did something mean today. I was at Target, which is having its parking lot repaved, so there is only like two rows for parking, and they dont have any lines, so everyone kind of parked cockeyed... fine.. it was pretty much everyone parking next to each other except for this ONE lady who parked out in the MIDDLE of the driving lane, so cars could barely fit through and the trucks had to back up because they couldnt get through. HELLO? I got paper out of my car and wrote "You park like a fuckwit" and put it on her windshield. A little harsh? nah...

Sunday, September 01, 2002

Some thoughts on fall semester...
I am now aware of what people are talking about when they say its different when you live in your college town year round. Last year Jenn stayed all year and she thought it was so wierd when people started coming back, and im like "why?" Yes, now I see. It is a drastic change to have everyone back here.. I dont know if its the large packs of girls in high heels walking down the street or the fact that everyone's couches are now on their front lawns... I feel like my town got invaded. I am now a college summer snob. Dont get me wrong, Im generally all about the college thing, I love that everyone in this town is up at all hours of the night. This is my problem. I live in an area very heavily populated with students. This is what it sounds like outside my apartment at night now. Cicadas, cicadas, cicadas, random "WHOO HOO! YEAH!", cicadas. Its not that the noise bugs me, not in the least. Its just that, come on people, you're fucking retarded. I go out with friends a lot. I have a really good time. At no point in time do I feel the need to scream at the top of my lungs "whoo hoo yeah." And the fact is, I can see you out of my sliding glass door. You're sitting on your lawn drinking beer. That is hardly something to "whoo hoo" about. So, If you get my point, the fact of the matter is Im annoyed by you only because you are making a complete ass of yourself and its hard for me to watch.

Friday, August 30, 2002

I need aggression therapy.

Sunday, August 25, 2002

Giant Dollar Dino

As a lead-in to this post, Id just like to say that from time to time I feel bad about the complete lack of content in my journal/blogger/site thing. I just read Jon's, and he was talking about human rights/human needs etc., which makes me feel badly only because I am about to talk about a inflatable dinosaur.
Speaking of Jon, I bought you a little present today!
On to the dinosaur. So I'm out shopping with Sara and Rirruto today, and we stop into the dollar store, where I think that I have just found the best bargain of my life when I spot a 36" inflatable dinosaur for the low low price of one dollar. I'm like " 36"?! thats three feet! I am going to buy this awesome three foot inflatable dinosaur, blow it up and put it in my living room!" This is the kind of random nonesense that makes life worthwhile for me. So I buy the dinosaur and we're in the car and Sar and Rirruto are like "Blow it up, Laura" and I'm like "No, its three feet tall, if I blow it up, I wont be able to get it out of the car.". But I do it anyhow. So I rip open the package, take it out, and start laughing so hard I can't breathe. The dinosaur is less than a foot tall. Apparently the thirty six inches was a horizontal measurement, not a vertical. But come to think of it, its not even that long, its probably less than two feet long. If you saw the package it came in you would be so disgusted. The picture on the front makes this dinosaur look gigantic. Nonetheless, it was the funniest thing of all time, and now the dinosaur is sitting on top of my TV. By the way, it has no face. Yup, they couldnt take two seconds and half of a penny to put a face on it. Im going to have to go draw a face on my midget dino now.

Friday, August 23, 2002

Yes, I know, it has been an entire week since I've posted anything, primarily due to the fact that im too lazy to come up with anything to say. I think I just recently realized how much I have to do in a very small amount of time. I graduate in april and then im going to grad school the following fall. this plan requires that I do the following, very, VERY soon...
1. find a place to take the GRE
2. study for the GRE
3. take the GRE
4. Since I am a creative writing major, I have to put together a portfolio-type thing to apply to grad school, and it needs to be really really good.
5. apply to grad school.
6. get my audit done so i can graduate in the first place.
All of this should be accomplished in about the next two months or so, I think. On top of this, my entire apartment is once again in shambles. We are moving stuff in and theres so much stuff we dont know where to put it, so its just sitting in big heaping piles everywhere, and i dont even want to begin to start going through it. Like an hour ago I was in a really really good mood, and now I am depressed or something.
Tomorrow Im supposed to go help "reorganize" the preschool that I work at (the kids arent there, its clean up week). Its my very last day working there. I think that it would make my day about 900% better if I didnt have to go in and Id be in a much better mood. On the other hand, its really rude to just not show up. The moral dilemma, the moral dilemma. Make myself happy or do what is responsible. Email me and tell me that it would be better if I didnt go in...

Friday, August 16, 2002

Ha!

Today's quote of the day comes from some guy in a bar. So I'm sitting at OP last night, complaining to Joe about some people. There's this guy who's sitting at our table, who I kind of know just because I've seen him at OP a lot, but dont really know. So I'm all complaining about these people when out of nowhere he turns to me and says
"You know what you should do? You should wait until they have children. And then... you should steal them!"
It was the most random hilarious thing ever...

Tuesday, August 13, 2002

Blah Blah Blah

To begin with, I have absolutely nothing to say today,but I haven't written anything in a while, so I feel like I should, even if its a bit of mindless chatter. My apartment is in ruins. Two of my four roommates moved out this past weekend. You would think "Oh, that's not as bad as moving into a new place, all you have to do is reorganize. No, this is not the case. I think it's more of a mess, seeing as some key furniture items belonged to the other roommates. For instance, the TV stand. My TV is now sitting on the floor, surrounded by a million and ten videos. I am eating my lunch at the computer desk, because the dining room table is no longer. I made pasta for lunch, only to go looking for the collander and remember that it belonged to one of the other roommates. On a brighter note, I am redecorating everything, and thats exciting. On a sadder note, I came home this afternoon to find that sometime after I fell asleep last night my evil boyfriend drank approximately half of the cans of Squirt I had in my fridge. He will be scolded next time I talk to him. And on my very last note of randomness, I'd like to mention that I think that Expresso cups are really neat little minature cups. I dont drink coffee, so I've never drank out of one, but I think I would feel a little ridiculous drinking out of one, kind of like I was at a little kid's tea party. This has been on my mind for a while now.

Thursday, August 08, 2002

I seem to have offended someone with my statements about Food TV. However, I think that I have been misinterpreted, because what I said was, that though watching Food TV is all fine and good, I don't think that the gym and vigorous exercise is an environment that matches with Food TV. I think exercise and TV and I think, a comedy or MTV or a sitcom, whatever. I, for one, have to have something either upbeat or extremely entertaining to watch/listen to while I'm working out or I will remember that Im working out, realize how much I really dont want to, and stop. Food TV just is not something that keeps me going while Im working out. Again, when I'm hanging out at my house, I wouldnt have a problem with sitting on the couch, watching some Food TV and writing down the recipies (if I actually cooked..), but I think that working out and watching Food TV is the equivalent of working out and listening to Sade (yes, Sade, can you think of anyone more lo-key than that?). So there you go. I would like to comment that I greatly enjoy Jon's (whom I offended) cooking, and dont wish to discourage him from watching the Food Network, because he made me some really good wine/veggie/spices chicken.

Wednesday, August 07, 2002

So I've been doing all of my exercising at the Y lately because 1) I get a free membership because I work in the preschool 2) I'm not taking summer classes, so I can't work out at the Rec Center. However, this has no connection to the story.. The story is the fact that EVERY time I go in there to run on the treadmill, two of the three TV's set up in front of the equipment are on food channels. Today it was like the Food Network, and another show that was making banana creme pie. Why would you torture yourself like that? I can hear the people thinking "Wow, that looks really good. No! I cant have that. Thats why Im here in the first place." They're like drooling all over the machines. Secondly, can you think of anything less entertaining than watching the food channel? Okay, I can understand if you're sitting down in front of it, writing down the recipie (sp?), but to just be like, 'hey, lets watch people make food'. I just dont understand.

Tuesday, August 06, 2002

Have you noticed that it is completely perfect outside tonight? Why are you inside reading this? go outside!!
Today's Quote:
(once again, from rob.)
"Well, I don't really know what constitutes a good movie. I mean, I liked 'Viva, Rock Vegas' "
See, this is why I like my boyfriend. He has an appreciation for all things retarded. This makes him highly compatible with me.

Monday, August 05, 2002

Go Home, Freshman!

This is my problem. I want to get into Psychology 100. It fills my last gen ed credit, but the real reason is that it fits PERFECTLY between two of my other classes, which means I take care of three of my four classes on tuesday and thursday from 11-3, allowing me to have much longer stretches of time during the week when I will sit around and do absolutely nothing. Why, when there are 1800 seats available for Psychology 100 in the fall term, can I not get just 1 of those seats? Because the freshman have once again invaded the campus. I am going to pinpoint one and harass them until they agree to drop the class.

Saturday, August 03, 2002

Do you know what an Heirloom Tomato is? They're these tomatoes that are grown using the same seeds over and over, and they turn out to be all different shapes and sizes and colors. I think that's cool ! Although, I don't exactly understand why they turn out to be different colors.. Go here and read about it, and let me know if you figure out why...
Why am I looking up tomatoes? I have a new job working at this really cool little restaurant that is all about the natural food, and Heirloom tomato salad is one of the features for this week...
*sigh* im sleeping in tomorrow...
counting crows were just on the Jay Leno show. I dont have their new album because I am too broke to buy it. I am their number one fan and I can't spend fifteen dollars on a CD. I tell you what.. If there are fifteen people out there who read this site, why dont each of you throw a dollar in an envelope and send it my way. Yes? Yes? No...
Im going to start reading "The Art of Happiness" tonight.. I let you know what it is when I finish. On a positive note, a list of eight things that make me happy.
1.The opening credits for "The Wonder Years" ("What.. would you dooooo.. if I sang.. out of tune?")
2.canned pear halves in extra light syrup
3.bubblewrap
4.getting out of work and having voice mail messages on my cell phone
5.The book "A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius" by Dave Eggers
6.Tetris. Tetris Tetris Tetris.
7.The smell of grass. And the color for that matter. Green is by far the superior color.
8.Hammocks. I don't have one, but I think if I did, it would make me happy.
Time for sleep now...:)

Thursday, August 01, 2002

I think that the kind of day I had today is best described by something Rob said to me when we were out to lunch today..
"Um, you need to find your zen or something and calm down, cause you are flippin out today."